Friday, February 25, 2005
curse the bloody guy who insulted irene. curse him with his fuckin' dick. hope his future baby is borne without an asshole. muahaha. he deserves it.
went craaaazzie at xiao wen's place today. zx, irene, xiao wen and myself had a game of Dare and Dare. xD~ spin the lighter and the unlucky one gets it. wanna try getting drawn on ur face like a madass using eyeliner, mascara, lipstick, eyeshadow..and everything that concerns makeup? haha.. anyway, u noe a picture speaks a thousand words.
it's not me.
irene.
beside xiao wen is not me.
beside irene also not me.
my bra-der .
have fun!
Thursday, February 24, 2005
i hate and love u at the same time. mixed feelings filled muh heart. i dont know wad i really want, i dont know how i really feel. imma useless biatch. sometimes i ask myself, what do i really expect in a relationship. i couldn't answer, i just....
i love the times we spent together watching the sea. i love the times when we behaved like best friends. i love the times when we mocked at each other. i love the times when we shared tiny secrets. i love the times when u whispered in my ear, "i love u." i love all the times when we were smiling. and, i love those times that we took a glance at each other a year ago. i love the times when u gave me surprises. especially when u sang me to sleep.
but. i hate the times when u argued with me over small matters. i hate the times when i cried. i hate the times when u said it was my fault. i hate the times when u talked without thinking of my feelings. i hate everything about u that made me unhappy.
tell me exactly how i feel.. someone, please. im crying.. crying so loudly in my shattered heart. its bleeding.. bleeding so badly. tired..very tired. but i can tell u that i love u like no one has ever loved u before..
-collapsed-
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
today's Finding Nemo Day. my school mates would know clearly why. because i wore the tee today!! heh. and i swear i'll never e ver in my life wear it again.
shagged. tuition, tuition, and tuition again. boo. oh ya. i wanna exercise! exercise! EXERCISE! and bloodyhellloseweight. lol.
Monday, February 21, 2005
he's the first voice i hear when i wake up, the last voice i hear when i go to bed. he calls me up, he talks me to sleep. so sweet.. i love him.
and yes. he's the one i've always been searching for, the one i've always longed.
the one who is always theree for me, be it when im sad, happy or angry.
do not feel it's the end of life.. it might be a new beginning, a new start. treat everything a lesson learnt. kan kai yi dian!!
realised im in a good mood? wahaha. of cos, when my bra-der has woke up from a nightmare - a very scary one, when everyone's looking at wad he is blinded by. dont trust a person too much. sometimes u might just get stabbed in the back. ^.^V
im mad today. lalala..
Sunday, February 20, 2005
im touched by his love..
so so very touched.
FUCKING CIGARETTES RISED TO BLARDY 11 BUCKS!
one of my new upcoming resolution is not to pay government taxes. i make sure osama bombs all their shitty territories. no balls bastards!
tried so hard to change the colours of this fuckin' skin but only managed to change the pathetic scrollbar. -_-"
soles of my small little feet are slowly turning into a rotter infested with bacteria. wakakaka. met dearie for breakfast at plaza sing's mac, den caught I Do I Do. lols. the show was like sooper funnay. was laughing muh ass off in the cinema. comedy cum love story. hit town at nite. today was like...so unlike singapore. hahas. if u've been to town [who hasn't? tell me who hasn't and i'll bitchslap u], the mrt stations would be filled with ppl. but today, orchard & somerset mrts were like..unbelivable. nobody. at first i tot i went to the wrong place. haha. oh yeah. due to the chingay mah. fucking chingay made the whole street so damn crowded like nobody's business. nothing interesting caught muh eye except the dragon which curled around dunno wad thing and the jumping-around-dolls. hahahas. luckily dearie and i left early before the chingay ended. made my going-home life much more easier. wahahas.
ciaos.
Thursday, February 17, 2005
omg. i was so fucking dulan today about this particular classmate lor!! didnt noe she was such a hyprocrite. can u imagine someone who is backstabbing literally all her friends and doesnt wants to admit it? and acting like an angel in front of the person that she backstabbed. cant take it. even her very best friend also backstab lor!!! -___-..wadda hell does she wants? trying to act noble is not a very good choice for her to make. i felt like.. *deng deng* wakakaka.. not only im dulan. even the guai-iest girl in class also saw her fox's tail man! the worse thing is, she dont wanna admit her mistakes when we told her right to her face!!! hmmph. super peng wei kia. she wanna make everyone trust her by being "innocent", den she got more friends. i really pity her bf at times. love is just so blind that he cant see a single thing. obviously that is just puppy love! let see.. being together for only around a month and they've broke up for like dunno how many times. she kept telling us she likes this guy, she likes that guy. wad is this??!! so the moral of the story is.. if u wan ppl to trust u, just fucking be urself! dont have to spread rumours or talk abt others and fucking dont admit it! arghh. arsehole!
ouhkayy. back to school. was quite fun today. heh. oh ya. got piano lesson later. i skipped it for like about 2 lessons already. lols. irritating!!
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
HAPPY VALENTINE'S.
valentine's quite lame actually. like wad dearie said, "i don't need a particular day to show that i love u." logical ya? heh. but looking at couples on the streets with a bouquet of flowers ..interesting noe. i received a stalk of pink lovely rose and a necklace from dearie and a box of sweets from ah lian. haa. walking on the streets last nite made me felt..romantic. lols. got tuition later lah. boring..
oh. my love goes out to everyone! my mum teached me to share my love. haha. ayts. hope everyone enjoyed their day! =)
Saturday, February 12, 2005
it's the 4th day of the lunar new year. here i am, slacking at home, waiting for time to pass by. ive been doing so many lame visitings the past few days. yupp..
-sigh-
am so irritated with muh boo these days. dont understand why. arghhhhh... anyway, happy cny peeps!
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
after a long long wait, 5hrs 57 mins to CNY! went to bugis in the early afternoon with dearie to get a pair of pumps from P.O.A.. got home and helped mum out with the spring cleaning. dead tired.
3days continuously - bugis, bugis, bugis. boring~ heh. gotta go over to muh uncle's place for reunion dinner in awhile. anyway,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! in advance.
Saturday, February 05, 2005
my day made me sing..
happy! sha La La..~
it's so nice to be happy..! sha La La~
everybody should be happy! sha La La..~
it's so nice to be happy! sha La La~
crashed town today with dearie and met up with some of muh friends for awhile. ive got a new bag for school and a top which i didnt like very much, but i love it cos dearie bought it for mua! dead tired. came home and helped my mum out with her baking, and one more big thang - daddy's home! grrrr.. boringggg! uh-huh. one more thing which i found out today, and it made me very happy was that dearie got a star diamond pendant for mua @ taka jewellery. boo. he seriously do not know how to keep surprises in suspense till da time they're supposed to be let out. wahahaha. gei wo zhua dao. though we had a lil' arguement in the streets few hours ago, i still love him as muchhhhhhh. =D im so touched by the things he said and he does.
ouhkayy. wad i hear in muh background now is.. "kan ni na bei!" - that's my dad. watching soccer and cursing at da same time. it's normal, but ya. it's irritating.
Friday, February 04, 2005
boo. im back for more action. haa..
dearie gave me a wonderful surprise just now. he told me that he aint booking out tonite. and so i was like watching tv and talking to him on the phone. at first i suspected he was outta camp already. heard the noise on the busy streets. suddenly the door bell went ding dong. guess wad. he was standing at muh doorstep with his fucking phone on his ear, and mine too. we were still talking on da fone at that time. how stupid. great. didnt expect him to give me such a surprise. i love him. haha. he went back to camp already. dearie's got IPPT tmr. yawn.
might be going to sleep soon.. just tired.
Thursday, February 03, 2005
yessa.. my blog is finally done. no more pain reading it. ive been so restless this week. no mood to do anything and everything.
someone eva heard of da chinese saying:: bei ai shi xin fu, ai ren shi tong ku. to be loved is a blessing, to love is sorrow (i think). my chinese suck. it's so so true.. think about it.
im so so tired. really. confusions and complications - all filled muh mind. i was thinking of giving up, seriously. but i know i cant bring myself to do it. how could i ever thought of that? wad will i do when dearie's not by my side? how would i feel when i dont have his love? i really need a break. but i cant bring myself to do it again. this is irritating me. when i really cant take it, i'll just give it all up, and i mean it. soon.
ive been crying myself to bed these days. and the feeling is like.. no one would ever think of unless u experience it urself. i might look bubbly and happy-go-lucky girl, whom is having all the love in the world, to most of muh friends. but i am NOT. worries have been kept in my heart always. school, finance, family, boyfriend, friends, God. im still learing how to balance my time. and above all these, manage my relationship with all these.. boo. one day i cant take it and i'll collapse.
dear. dont get the wrong idea. ive never regretted knowing u.. just that i thought, we should spend more time with each other before we got into this relationship. some words are better left unsaid, some things u and i really cant explain. u noe how much u mean to me kay? i love u.. =D
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
boo. something's wrong with muh bloggie. and im waiting for my teacher again. boring~ lols. didnt really attend school today. skipped all da lessons before lunch and 2 lessons after lunch. den went to play pool woth eugene, ah wei and irene. irene left earlier. xiao wen and ah lian came and joined us later. nothing much to update lately.
oh yeah. mum said i can rebond my hair already! FINALLY!!! im gettin tired of that fuckin' permed hair.
specially for muh darling::
dont feel sian when u have to book in. u always tell me to find fun in everything i do. same goes to u.. army life might be fun without me by ur side at times. u've booked in so many times since we were together and u noe how fast time flies. if u cant bear to part with me for just one week, how are u gonna go to U.S. for 3 yrs? i know. the more u get closer to me every week, the more u dont wanna go to U.S. rite? but u have to go. dun worry dear. i love u and i'll wait for u no matter how long it's gonna take...
audrieeee@hotmail.com
